Long Time no Chat

Wow,

So its been a long time since I have been on here, keeping the fam up to date. Well not much but everything has happened. Weird to say.

I have had arguments, fights, calm days, crying days, and just over all blah days.

Sara and Dustin got engaged yaya not! Sara already thinks she has say over Sydnie which means it will only get worse from now on, she needs to learn her boundries! Dustin, I am not sure wanted to get married, I feel he was guilt trips and tricked into it, but you know, thats his issue and he will have to deal with it and so will she when it doesn't end up working long term.

I have told Jeff I would like to get married on sometime in my life. Not right now, but ya know, a ring would be great, shows me more committment, but how much more committement do I need? Really? He has stayed with me during the worst of times, had a baby with me, takes care of my daughter when she treats him bad, wants to me with me not without me. So I should have enough, but I feel I need more lol a ring..but I am not dwelling on it. Sometimes its hard being the only one not married or engaged in my circle of friends, but again, I dont want to get married just for it to come crashing down a year or sooner or later down on my head. I want to get married and stay married!

Sydnie is in soccer, I think she likes it alot, she is funny though, she runs toward the ball to kick it, but then doesn't kick it. I think just running around feeling like she is involved in something is great for her! So I am not worried.
HOWEVER, yesterday, Jeff was outside kicking the soccer ball and SMASH right into Sydnies bedroom window and it shattered. So not ONLY baseballs can shatter windows!
Syd's team has won both games so far....GO RED TEAM!

Jeff and I are making the attempts to get along better and realize when we are in stupid arguments and stop them right there, its hard for me, but I need to make the effort to just let go of small things that are stupid, then worry about them and make them into issues that don't need to be there!

We have talked about moving in with his mom, it would save me about 15.600 in rent a year, 3840.00 in utilities a year, which means all that I am saving can pay off all my bills, and help me save up for a downpayment on a house or relocation funds! Jeff and I have talked about moving. I think we have settled on FL. Its forever away but its some place new. With new surroundings and people. New oppurtuinities! And there might be an internship I can get down in Miami with the Crime Scene Lab down there! How exciting.

School started on the 13th of May. I am excited for this term. I feel better prepaired to deal with school and all my issues on top of that. I think
I was in my first class on Wednesday and one chicky pissed me off, I hate stupid people, but what can you do, the world is filled with them! Blah. I am just waiting for my degree I will have in two years and get a great job/career. I watch the FIrst 48 hours and its funny because Crime Scene Investigators dig in trash and blah becaus thats where the evidence is if the body is in there, but I am so willing to do that. That still means I am helping putting people away for murder and what not. That has to be a gratifiying feeling!

Work is work, blah blah blah, politics and crap and selfish people but go figure. And lately there is a lot to do. But it needs to be done. Knock on wood three times. lol.

I am trying to plan a trip for Jeff and I. I am hoping mom will take Thomas for a night. I am not sure if she will< I haven't talked to her yet, but it would be nice, Jeff and I can get away for a night. I will have to see. I dont know :)

Thomas is getting so big, and he's smiling and talking in baby talk and just great. I love that little guy. Sydnei is getting the attitude most 9 year olds have what a struggle, but she is still my first baby. lol